This Broken Earth

Nothing is ever round, or flat, or plumb:
I see now in trueness, that love is blind
Whether two are joined together in a blossoming romance,
Or merely just a fetish and immeasurable desire for pleasure.
I cannot see or smell the freshness of the greenest leaf nor life’s earnest beauty
Whether it is my inability to smell or see, I will fault it on love
I have neither the heart to stop nor the intent
My dreams and visions have become but a reverie all for an utterly made creature
For oh, my love is born of one dream divine,
Sandwiched in the beating amazement of my intellection.
Last night I dreamed her face, and I almost saw it
I know nothing else but her and the scent she wears
The thing we share, is what the vast creation craves, the joining of our lives for eternity
And only at the touch of my lips on her face, is when the trumpet shall sound.
The only sounds I know are the sounds of her gasping as though asking for air,
And of her groaning and squirming whilst honey flowed from the parted pot along my fing’rs
And the sound of her heart beating faster and faster as I breathed on her triangle of hair
And a feeling of peace in the warmth of the sea like transferring my life into her and taking over hers.

It is true, love is fire, and food and wine
For I feel this surging billowing heat inside of me when I think of her
And an insatiable hunger and unquenchable thirst and lust
It is like, when I am alone, I want nothing less than her.
It is like the world is on fire, and no one can save me but her
Oh, this feeling.

Tell me how life can be prolonged
Tell me how to become immortal, so I can spend eternity with my precious love
Or assure me that there is life in death.
If I must die, bury me then, with a painting of her, so I will not forget the love we shared
I have walked, I have trusted with open eyes
I have seen all there is to see, but I do no more
All because of a simple word that was whispered to me by a daft musical voice
I have plunged my head deep in the moving depths of desire and intimacy
So, if I must die, let me die with her
But if I must wake from this dream,
Tell the room service I did not mean to.

Ode to My Mirror

Mirror mirror on the wall
Not too light, not too dark
Oh if I don’t have it all!
In the shadows I’ve been known to lurk
For the world was on fire
And no one could save me, but her
Had I not been such a crier
And looked in the mirror with a blur
Perhaps, I could have seen my all too lonely soul
Burying myself deep in this forlorn hole.

Sinner man, where do I run to?
All my hope is lost
And now i am all but wrapped in this deep black hue
I feel like I am becoming a ghost!
Yet I look in the mirror, and I see myself
Not too tall, not too short
But tell me now, is this an elf,
And all my life, is just a swart?

TEACH ME

Teach Me How to Learn

I have a dark mask I like to try on,

Oh, the blackness that hides deep inside of me

And the childhood innocence of putting a finger in the fire to become saint.

Detest, loath, trying to hide a hostile glare and a contorted face

Will I ever see my boy again, I doubt?

Every morning has broken with solemn tread, but still, I must keep the kind face.

Must we all suffer for the choices we make?

Or is it just my time to have a taste of my own medicine?

Must we always give to expect quittance?

If this be, then why not be still and eat each our share in it and live and die?

 

Teach me how to learn to live with a face I borrow whilst I bury which is mine underneath it.

Teach me how to not shudder at your sight but smile with benignity

Teach me how to laugh when you jest facetiously and when you act as though caring

Teach me how to learn to teach you to understand me

I want you to understand me without me telling you the pain of living amongst those you loathe

Teach me, oh dear, how to even learn.

Who knows that which I know when I have asked you questions and get no answers,

Am I the spieler or you?

Who has spoken the words from your mouth? Is it me?

I am spinning around circles; I have wanted embraces my heart faltered asking.

 

The earth has me underground, and wants me stuck there

Dark, marvelous, and inscrutable, yet still I do not wish to tell.

Is there anything after now? If there is, what is it?

I do not know how to learn to want to be around anyone

Am I wicked, or are you? I wish I knew.

I do not see what more is there, I want to turn around and walk away

Because I cannot take back things,

But I guess I have loved and lost.

For all that has surrounded me are secrets and lies

I know not what road to take, life is just a game of charades.

 

Teach me, teach me Oh dear how to learn

I cannot take it anymore, inner tears never seem to cease

I drive through night and day, just hoping to be away from everyone and everything

I want to rip all my skin off my flesh and feed it to the birds of the air

And then have a reason to cry and hate myself for

I want to go on an endless journey where I can make myself promises I will not break

I want to drown myself in endless music and air, because now I know; there is something we will always miss.

I want to scream, to let out my demons, and choke on spittle and cry a river

I want to go to a place where no one knows me

And then begin a new life as though I were not broken and in need of mending.

 

Teach me to learn how to love myself better

Teach me, and tell me what really inspires us

If it is the long unending fights or the funny noes and might’s or the glowing lights

Or is it just the desire to be seen and heard?

It just takes time to realize that even angels lie, and their glowing cloaks are dark.

But I want to learn, how to like the unlikeable and wrap them in my generous embrace

And smile at their face and wish they had never existed.

So, teach me how to learn to live against that time if that time ever comes

When everyone frowns and barely greets me with the same sun

Or just teach me how to learn to walk away while running.

 

 

Through thick and thin, I press, but going forth is nothing

My efforts are futile, I am fretful, forlorn, and sad

I do not know the taste of a smile from happiness, for I have mastered the art of duplicity

My opinions, my reason, my purpose, I am nothing in the face of humanity

I just want to learn, so teach me

Teach me how to tell myself I am a man, but it is okay to cry

 

Now I know why days break and nights fall

Now I know why the world is sad, and complicated

I want to pick up my luggage and leave, I want to seek my peace

But I want you to teach me how to learn to forgive myself for failing.

 

They said it gets easier by the time

But I think I will take with us the pain when I die

Teach me to lose myself in the least expected ways and be able to laugh to myself

Teach me how to want to be good when I do not know how to

And how to learn to accept the strength in vulnerability

Take me to the top of the world so I can feel what people feel when they are there

I want to learn the things that make me a lesser man, so that I do not have to feel this way again

But I want to be alone, away from all these deceptions and lies and motives

Teach me how to pick my heart from the ground without bending

Show me the road to peace of mind, body, and soul.

 

I look up in the sky always and it laments

And there I sit under it to catch its teardrops, lingering with an aching heart

I want to remember and go back to being a boy again, to whistle an unfamiliar tune unbothered and just happy.

I do not know how much I can go on,

I thought I could never have something to walk away from, yet here I stand, feeble and unable

I doubt we are all trapped in a single fate, for this pain wants to kill me.

My life has been spent in sorrow, and my years with sighing

My strength has failed because of my iniquity, and I can feel my bones waste away.

I just need someone to teach me,

To teach me how to learn what to do with these wounds in my heart,

Teach me, and teach me how to learn.

THE GOOD OLD TIMES

THE GOOD, GOOD OLD TIMES
It was nice,whilst it lasted,
The love I never dare confess,yet harder to repress
The times I sat at the balcony,
And you came into me with a wondrous kiss,
I named it,’the kiss of life!’
For with the touch of your lips,I felt more and more alive again
Your chest pressing,softly against mine,
Your beautiful wine gourds chubby on my face,
It was nice,really breathtaking,when I saw your yes
Dazzling bright,and sapphire,
I remember the good good ol’ times
When we sat to watch the sunset,o’er the grey cloud
I found everything extremely overnice!
I remember the good good old times,
When I thought you japed about my big big face and forehead
I loved your witticism.
I cannot forget to tell you,dear reader,
That at this point,I did not loose my beloved
I just lost something else to write about
But before you turn another leaf,dear reader
She is what is,and what was!

Uncle D

PENDO MY LOVE


It is your voice,and novice,that I hate,my love
When you up your hand cutting me mid-speech
Just to hear you blabber, and your agitation
Are you ever calm, or even a listener?I doubt!
All my ears can hear,or eyes can see,till all be done
Till you sit to listen,
But ah! That time I might not live to see.
I never cease to wonder when last I heard your silence
Yet you don’t sleep in silence,but soundly
Snoring and I recall my thought to kill you
And probably lay you in the parquet flooring.
My love,when last did you sit to hear me finish my word,
Before you quickly interrupt to share your bitterness?
I remember we did not share our vows the other day
Nor finish my proposal at the foyer,
Because you talk too much than think.
Oh,my love,
It’s not hate which I feel for you,I must say,
But love and concern for your tongue
But if I’m left to choose between you and death,
For sure It wouldn’t be you I choose,

Yet I want to talk to you of the little things
So fond, so frail, so foolish that one clings
To keep them ours—who could but understand
A joy in speaking them, thus hand in hand
But I fear,I will be the one to listen,yet desire to talk!
Uncle D

FOUR WEDDINGS AT A FUNERAL


Dear old reader,yet another time to remind you;
Under the drab and sad faces you saw at EDITH’S burial-
I’m afraid,half were rejoicing my tying knots with AZRIEL the daughter of ANTOINE
The enchanted hour,The magic bower,
Where, crowned with roses,Love love discloses.

Dear reader,before you turn the next page,
You probably forgot that my mortal Islam RAHMA ;
He knelt on his right knee,and she said YES!
While a lifeless life lay supine in a coffin right ahead.
Whilst her lifelessness slowly belted six feet under,
ELLEN wanted a wedding ground
We all sat in congratulation of her, trampling over the fresh grave.
Once and again the thought, ‘for ever gone,’
Come over us like a cloud; yet,
My father finds his happily ever after crying,for the loss of her mama,
His charm fails him not,and he woos her into marriage,

Dear reader, before you turn the next leaf,
Think of her body’s loneliness.
At night pacing the sheared field,
its shadow buckled tightly around.
Think of those September rains,or the blazing Junes and Mays
I should never rest in peace!
When I die,I want four weddings at my funeral!
Duncan Kiplimo
Uncle D

WHY

WHY NOT ME
I wish I could ever awaken you-
How wish I,that my name could trigger your adrenaline,
But who am I,if not a lesser being;
I mean,who even thinks me human,but just a living being.
How I really wish,I’d be good enough;
But I am not,regret I.

My love for you has grown in disguise,
I’ve lived to hope a next day will give more,
I’d put none above you,but often ask I myself,
What is it worth?
I love your firm possession,
Your fiery,unflawed futurity,
You are a misery I should venture;
Daughter of a noble father.

But canst thou tell me why,
Why should the lovely rose I sent you-
Wither in the Vale,so pale,
And why is it my heart of many,
That thou forsaketh!
Duncan Kiplimo
Uncle D

THE PRICE OF RICHES


When I sat among the rich
At first,I felt lucky,and rich as well
I felt,like I could woo all the dresses for my side
But when I sat with them in their posh cars,I felt sad
When I sat among the rich,I felt pitiable and hapless

I had friends who had wealth and confidence
Women went and came at their call,
Whilst I’m only a poet
Fighting a bitter fight
Fate will not grant me,even leisure with which to write

When I sat among the rich,
They dressed in wealthy and classy robes and suits
The joys of wooing,the could not know,
For money is the refuge for their lasses
My dear reader,their fathers own fortunes!

But when I sat among the rich,
I realized this,that;
No man stops at a rich man’s door to pass a day’s time
No man shouts a “hello!” In the good.
Uncle D
Duncan Kiplimo

SO THAT I DO NOT LOVE MUCH AGAIN

SO THAT I DON’T LOVE THEM MUCH THIS TIME
Was love even for me?
I think not;
For the many times I’ve loved,I’ve also parted,
Loving that which was never really going to stay,
I’ve been taught to die alive,
I need not love anymore.
If by loving not I do myself a favor,
Then it be,
But man is man,
And I am man,I want death again.
I want to feel alive,to be touched
I quite know the sensation that touchment* comes with
So,someone’s daughter,don’t let me die again,come touch me.
Tell my sister to tell her friend’s sister to touch me,
Or my heart,for that matter-
Or tell my mother to tell her friend to tell her daughter to come touching me,
For I know what comes with love,
But I also know what love brings along.

Give me my pen,
I want to write to them to come touch me,
So that I be alive again,
So that I don’t love them much this time.
Uncle D
Duncan Kiplimo